Finally

At the end off all my readings, I realize that professional development is a career long endeavor. To be called ‘professional’, we must develop our professionalism continuously, without relying on the schools or department to provide opportunities for us. Therefore, I should grab the opportunity and search the way to develop my own professionalism. Me myself, should be the sources of renewal and continuance.
Through out developing this e-port folio, I realize that the process that I have gone through designing, developing and maintaining the e portfolio, from the beginning until I manage to complete it, is more less the same as the process that I am going through now- developing myself to be a better teacher, not only to give benefits to my students but also give me the satisfaction of being a teacher. I have learned many things via this assignment- thanks to Dr Edwin for assigning this assignment in the first place. In order to produce this e- portfolio, I discovered many things about myself. However, I am still trying to find other ways to improve myself, and once I discover the way, I will discover myself. I admit that there are still so many weaknesses in myself but there is still room for improvement for me. The choice is mine , either to become a better person and teacher OR remain the same.
I am sure after this I will still continue maintaining my e –portfolio. I plan to upload few other teaching resources and create different pages for other subjects that I am teaching now. I would also want to add a forum and invite my students to join and chat, to be able to see and understand themselves as a student. Through the comments and feedback given from my friends and Dr Nooreen, I got more energy and idea to improve this e –portfolio.

Thanks to all!!

MELTA conference

Few weeks ago I have sent a letter to ILHAM (Institut Latihan MARA) , applying to be sponsored for the next coming (end of May) MELTA conference. However, I still have not received any feedback or reply from ILHAM. Some of my colleagues said that ILHAM will only send participant based on the seniority, where some of them are not interested at all. So, I dont't think they are going to approve my application (if that is the requirement), even though I am really interested and looking forward to attend the conference.

So..I guess I have to check my saving, is it enough for me to attend the conference...Sometimes I don't understand ..why they keep sending people who do not interested at all to attend it??

Losing someone...

Last Monday, one of my colleagues passed away. She is in her early thirties and also an English lecturer. She was admitted to Hospital Tengku Ampuan Afzan, Kuantan on 25 March 2008, Tuesday, I guess because she had a terrible cough and asthma. The next day she was given a medicine that makes her unconscious, and she remained unconscious until her death. She was also admitted to the ICU after she had given the treatment, which is on Wednesday. My friends, Ayu, Dahlia, Jamilah and Aidah and me myself went to visit her few times but she was already unconscious at that moment. She seemed not to response to the medicine and treatment given to her. We always pray for her, hope that she will recover as soon as possible. However, Allah loves her more…She died on Monday, at 8.50 in the morning.

The saddest part is…her baby who is 5 month also died few hours before her last breath.

It is really terrible to have lost someone that you know. I do think a lot since she died. I ask myself – how about me, when is my death?Am I prepared enough?

Only Allah knows the answer..

For the time being I always pray for her, hope she will be treated nicely there, since I also hope others to do the same things if I die to.

What I learnt is, there is nothing much more important when you died except to have people who can pray for you and give you support till the end of your last breath.