It has been a very long silence. But what happens today 'inspire' me to write again. For the .........(uncountable) time, I feel the pain..again and again. I dont think I can stand it anymore, cant stand to be part of the community, cant stay the way they work, the way things are done. I cant stay longer here. it has reached the maximum limit of my patience.. really really really hope to leave soon, as soon as possible. Ya Allah, please make things easier for me, for the benefit of my family and also my future.